In General

It still amazes me that I am where I am. If you would have asked me ten years ago, "Where do you see yourself in a decade" my answer would not have been what I'm living. It's amazing really that so many bad things can happen in one life, and it can cause you to become a quasi evil soul. But with realization and an understanding of love the world can truly turn around. Sure, I complain a lot about my job, town, and life in general but when I look back over my shoulder at the road I have walked it amazes me that I'm breathing and loving and laughing here today.

I know it was in me to become 'me' again but I can't help but think that if my parents, sister and her family, and my wonderful wife wouldn't have stuck in there with me I don't think I would have reached this level of normalcy. I am actually to the point now where I want to reconnect with my friends that I have lost touch with. I never thought I would crave a relationship with anyone much less the above mentioned people and getting a chance to hangout with my best friend and his family last month really reawakened my desire to live it to the fullest.

If you've never seen or been to some dark places you might not understand. I want to live/laugh/love with all those that I care about. I'm grateful that my life has turned into baby steps of happiness. I don't say it a lot but thank you and I love you...y'all know who you are. I hope to rediscover my faith soon...maybe that's my next step?!

I know that the future will hold adventures, I seek more then I should but some will happen and others that are unexpected will happen as well. I guess what I'm saying is I want to travel, start businesses, move to amazing locations, become one with the world and along the way write some. No matter where life takes you, it gets better...trust me. If I don't make a lot of sense just nod your head and chuckle and maybe one day I'll write in a cohesive form...become a little ocd and do it right.

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