Ever feel like the puppy in the window

Well I'm back and the wine festival was wonderful. It had some kinks and curves thrown in but all around it was good. We found a wonderful pizza joint that I wish we had here. I actually remember all of the events that took place this weekend...good or bad unfortunately. But good times were had and vino flowed like well, wine/water take your pick. I got to meet a cousin and it was nice to meet her. She seemed like a very nice lady. Maybe we can hangout with her more soon.

Now we're back in work and it's wonderful or some such nonsense. And life goes on and we return to that oh so loving rut of work and living for the evenings and weekends. As ole blue eyes said, 'That's life' and so it is.

I can't wait to go back and see my friend Dr Syn, the man that helped to change my life. I'm hoping to get my act back together and progress through life some more. For the last few months I've been feeling light headed and having all sorts of issues. I believe that my system is out of whack with the way it should be. I think I've actually malnourished myself and this crumby diet that I have partaken in has really interfered with my day to day operations of how I should be. It's the ravings of a mad man. I know not for certain of that which I speak but I speak nonetheless.

I have felt like I'm floating outside looking in on myself. I am lethargic and stuck in that mindset. I have enough energy to stay upright and do my job but when I get home I don't do anything. I know it sounds lazy but here as of late I've taken it to a different level. I'm kind of scared...don't tell anyone. That's why I'm getting blood work tomorrow and going back to see my Dr in Lubbock. I really do think this will sort my issues out. I make it sound worse than it is. It's not all that bad, I'm just not the same person this way. I feel like I'm standing behind glass watching...hence the title of this raving.

I've actually got a solid story playing out in my mind for my manuscript...TO BE CONTINUED.

Redeeming the Changes

So I've had a Gastric Bypass, the Roux-en-Y, and now I feel as if I'm wasting it. I'm to comfortable and I've grown lazy and somewhat lethargic. I feel like a Mike Vick...I've been given a gift and I'm pissing it away. I'm doing this for no other reason then I'm lazy. Now it's getting to the point to where I'm worried.

I miss my competitive athletic side. I need this back in my life...in a bad way. I know this will calm the Hurricane that is my mind and thought process. I know how I am and the only way I'll ever get this back is if I make it my life...not just an idea but a lifestyle.

I not only need it for my minds sake but for my life's sake. I refuse to have kids in a house of lethargy and total inactivity brought on by me. I want to redeem the gift I was given and I know it's not to late. If I can smoke and dip for the amount of years that I did and quit without true issue I know I can workout and do something that I love. For crying out loud some of the best times in my life were in a weight room.

My goals may seem self serving; I want to look good in some Under Armour, I want to run a marathon, and I want to try a triathlon. But my real goal is due to the fact that I met my best friend and soul mate and I want to spend all the time with her I can!! Plus she deserves a good looking fellow and a healthy family. Sure there are other goals but they are mine, and mine alone.

So now the choice must be made, and it will. I know I'll need help and I must remain focused. Trust me I have too...not a choice really. The success of me as a man depends upon this. Believe in me, watch me and follow me and it will be doable!