Winston!!

We took a road trip up through the TX panhandle to meet our new puppy today. We were so excited the whole way there. We had Winston picked out for a boy's name and Juliet picked out for a girl's name. Conversation on road trips in the Deaver car is always great! We rarely turn the radio up past the lowest level, because our chatting is better than any music on! (we have XM radio too, so I am sure there is good stuff on there!) Josh would periodically "scratch" the ears of his (for now) imaginary dog and say, "You's a good boy!" LOL This puppy is going to be spoiled!

Conversation is never interrupted due to scenery. If you have never been around Amarillo and its surroundings, you aren't missing much! My mom did remind me today that we have beautiful sunrises and sunsets! TRUE! Thanks, Mom, for finding the beauty in our home!

Taking the road down to the owner's home...we ran into what we call Winston's step-brothers. On the country road, they were just a few feet from the car! Josh tried to get me to get out to take the picture, but I refused and shot the pic out the window! YIKES! I am such a city girl!


After spending a little while with the 5 pups in the litter, we had it narrowed down to three. "How will we ever decide?" I asked. Scarlett, the owner, had great information for us! She is very knowledgeable about the breed! What a sweet lady. We could have stayed all day and played with the pups! There was the runt with only one black spot over one eye. There was the playful girl that carried the toys around and the dough belly girl that was "the hunter!" She was curious! AND...Winston, of course, the only brother in the group. He liked Josh's lap as we sat in the middle of the living room with puppies everywhere! Juliet (yes, we named another one while we were there) was SO VERY CUTE! I could not decide.


An hour later, we were taking pictures of Winston before we left. I mentioned to Josh at one point that he had to hand him back over...then I held him and he had to remind ME that we had to give him back for now! Winston will soon come home and be part of the Deavi! We cannot wait! Love him already!

Creative Outlet

I've decided I need to find a creative outlet. I love to paint but the oil paint makes the house smell. It makes my wife sick and after awhile, I must admit, it makes my stomach ill as well. Writing well, I like to write but sitting down and writing from my imagination never turns out like I want it too. It's a difficult task to create your own world and get the proper emotion into your characters. I need to go back to nonfiction writing I think. It's fact based on your research, yet that too is overwhelming at times. My point of view or new idea is hard to make credible with all the PhD's floating around writing about what is. I thought about hunting too. This idea I like but it's expensive and my wife isn't fond of the idea of guns in the house. I'm not comfortable with guns either yet I'd like to learn. The problem is you have to spend tons of money up front just to find out if you even like it. I've always wanted to learn the art of welding. You can do art and projects with it, but we'll see.

I just feel like I'm floating in constant hiatus waiting for something to happen. Why not make it happen. Become me and do things I like while becoming a more proactive positive person. Sounds like a reasonable plan. So away we go.

First proactive/positive thing I plan on doing is going to get my teaching certificate. I need to stay after the Post Bacc guy to get me some information and to get me enrolled. So away we go.

Day of struggle

Well today was, it was bad. Not only is the weather getting cold and making my ankle swell up like an old man but internally I was just not with it today. I don't think it was just today either. It seems as if this has been sneaking up on me for awhile now. But today if culminated into a full blown internal soul crushing melt down. It was rough but after a little bit of news it got better. Not that anything was really wrong. I think I just don't care for myself...parts at least. I decided to take Hill's advice and not to fret and worry over the things that I cannot control. AND I decided that I need to be a more positive person in all things. Instead of looking at obstacles as a set back I need to look at them as something to overcome and to learn from. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right? Well I hope so because I'm balls to the wall and nothings going to slow me down.

Not only that but the future is looking bright. For the first time in my life I have a goal that I've made for myself and not set by someone else. I know, pathetic huh?! Well I'm proud to say it's mine and I'll accomplish it and I can't wait to see what that feels like.

Good days

So I turned in my application for the PACE program. I'm pumped. I know there is a lot left to do on this road I'm traveling but hey, it's worth it. I still have a test to take and some interviews and some in class work and some observation to do but I am definitely ready. So the long haul begins and I'm sitting in the drivers seat for the first time in a long time. Up up and away my friends.

It was nice getting to hangout and talk with my cousin Emily today as well. I always enjoy getting to hang with my fam.

Well, time to do the online interview.

Keep up the PACE

So this year has begun very well so far. I've completed the application for the PACE program and I am turning it in tomorrow. I hope to hear back soon with my acceptance. Once that begins our 'brighter future' will start. I can't wait for it to start. I'm in the process of setting up my new mini with Office and whatnot, as soon as it's all set I'll be posting my stories and other creatively artistic works posted on here. It will everything you could hope for...so please come back...if you're here at all.

New Years Resolution

So being the new year it's time for a serious revolution of the resolution. There are several things to stop/change/start and I know that I can't do them all at once. So lets do some baby stepping.

1.) Write every day...on here and on my mini.
2.) Stop smoking...I want to live longer so I can monopolies my wife's time.
3.) Become more active...physically and within the community.

That is what I'm shooting for this year. It won't be easy but it needs to be done. I didn't want to even sit down for the five minutes it would take to type this out. Strange things happen and when I booted up the computer for some reason the feel of the keys under my finger tips just felt right. It's a comforting feeling sitting here rubbing the keys on the keyboard. It's strange but it feels...right/pleasing/comforting? All of the above. Hmmm?

2010

So another year is upon us and my resolution is simple...just write everyday. Oh and stop smoking and change the things I don't like about myself. Easy right? Well it will be baby steps but I'm sure I can do it.

Stay tuned and see what I actually write.